i think im pretty much jaded.

i have been sick. its not fun being sick. i dun even enjoy being sick. why dont ppl realise this?

but thankfully im feeling much better now.

but then again. howells.

sometimes i think that i think too much. i always did and i think i always will. is that a flaw?

and amazingly, this emotional part of me slowly catches up on me all the time.

well. stop it already. just stop it.

but i think many a times its just good to shut up.

new mantra maybe?

yeah stop saying so much and expressing so much and just go with the flow, whatever that is. i mean sometimes ppl ask if anything is the matter. im sure all have been in that situation. to let it out and relieve yourself or just shut up and i dunno, keep things positive. more often than not, i choose to shut up first and then decide there's no point pretending nothing is wrong. den decide to open up. and more often than not thats de wrong choice. always makes things worse rather than better. and hey, i never learn.

i just never learn.

oh its so silly, all these. its silly that i think im gonna cry myself to sleep over nothing in particular.